last night

was insane.

i cannot remember having that much fun in forever. i mean, i remember having a lot of fun, but not that type of fun. i haven't had a sleepover or been to one in months. in fact i think the last one (not counting last night) was in january. how pathetic. anyway. it was wild. i did some things that i have never done before. haha. :D

well for the first two hours we pretty much obsessed about twilght and stuff. we seriously went online and looked at several sites. i can wait for the twilight movie. of course it isn't going to be anywhere as good as the book, but it's still going to be fantastic. and it comes out on a friday! i know that means the premiere would be on a thursday night, but you know my insane attendance thing, so i don't think i want to risk it again. i know that going to the mae concert last year really did because we got home at like four or five am. but it was so totally worth it. (: but that means that i can we can go to twilight on friday night and then obsess about the movie all night since saturday there's no school! yay!! and breaking dawn is coming out in less than a month!!!! gahhh!!! omg.omg.omg. i'm so excited. and stephenie meyer said herself that this is the last book in bella's perspective. she did say she was working on this book called midnight sun, but it was going to be in edward point of view and she said she wasn't even sure if she was going to finish writing it. i think she even said something about kinda being twilighted out.

so after obsessing about twilight for who knows how long we ate. sadly, because of my braces, i could not chew. so while they all ate their yummy sandwiches, i sad there eating meat and cheese. ah well, it was enough for me.

then we swam... that was really fun... giggle (:

then we went inside and hung out in the game room. i watched hannah montana for the first time ever while we ate our dessert. it's cute. after that we had some fun with the on demand stuff and watched these kiddie exercise videos. Ruth picked the first one. it was called Hip Hop Hoop and it was rather... odd. haha. this lady was doing all these things while hoola hooping. it was really funny. it was impressive though. the whole ten minutes, she didn't drop her hoola hoop once. but she would do these weird moves like slide across the floor. and then jump up and then jump in a half circle. then jump in a 360. i was surprised i could to some of those things when before last night i could never even hoola hoop. haha. but the weirdest thing that lady did was she kept doing this dance move thing chanting "get krump, get krump, get krump, get krump." it was so freaking funny. oh yeah, we found this kid yoga thing. it was really entertaining. then we found some other questionable "exercise" dance routines. hahahahaha.

well, we also did a bunch of random stuff like fit four people in carley's bed and watch pussycatdoll music videos and eat frozen cake with frosting that turned our mouthes blue and make faces with carley's mirror and stay up til 5:30. yeah. it was insane. but i'm telling you. that's how sleepovers are supposed to be. hahaha. (:

love you all
(and sorry i haven't updated in months...)

Hannah Marie. (:

ilny.

Now i know why Madonna sings that.
I Love New York.
i miss it soooooo much.

anyway.
i just had to say that i think it's really weird how now that i'm back from new york, i have seen so many things from new york with people who didn't go on the trip. i'm not saying they shouldn't have stuff just because didn't go on the same trip as me, i'm just wondering if so many people already had it and i'm just noticing it because i didn't pay enough attention before.

i don't know.
whatever.

i just think it's weird
and it makes me miss new york even more. ):

I Love New York.
I really do.

dang.

a lot has changed since i last updated.

no joke.

first of all,
i thought my friendships were going pretty well. i know that lately i've kinda been ditching them for a boy, but i thought that i was managing them ok. i guess i was wrong. at least one person thinks differently, so i can't help but wonder who else things that. i really don't want to lose my friendships because of a boy, but i don't think that's the reason, at least with this person. i love her dearly, just for a while now our friendship has been fading. its not like i don't care. its just a little too late for me to try and act on it. i admit i should have done something earlier, but maybe this is for the better. maybe our temporary close relationship was all that was supposed to be.  i accept that i will probably not be as close to her as i have been in the past, but i just don't want to lose her friendship altogether. i don't think i will, but what do i know? whatever. i believe that it will work out for the best and what happens happens. if youre reading this, i honestly do miss our friendship and i'm sorry that i have been annoying you lately. i just hope that our friendship doesn't disappear altogether.

next,
i have changed. definitely. for better or for worse. i have. i've moved on for sure. no doubt this time. my band preferences have altered just a tad. i still love mae, but i tend to save their music for when im in an extreme mood. i am currently obsessed with the classic crime and between the trees. i am slacking. i promised myself i would not, but i kind of am. i need to focus, but after these last few days, it's kinda hard to do. i can't get him off my mind. and when i do, i'm sleepy. or i make some other lame excuse to not do work. i've become rather dedicated to diving. i plan to varsity this year and i really think i can. i have my eleven dives, i just need to prefect them so that at leagues i can score and not be the worst diver there. i really wanna varsity in diving. i want to get better at tennis too, but i'm not sure if that will ever happen. i don't have the self discipline to practice on my own so that i can get better. i'll see. maybe if i constantly practiced this summer i could have a chance at varsity. at least the worst on the team, but still there. hmm. that would be nice, but hard work. just imagining myself in it is making me excited even thought i don't think it's going to happen.

as much i would love to continue catching you up with what i haven't blogged about in forever, i think i gotta go to bed. goodnight loves.

thank you for caring enough to read my nonsense.
i appreciate it greatly. (:

i'm at a loss of words.

my life is:

amazing,
aggrivating,
lucky,
sucky,
full,
empty,
positive,
negative,
i love it,
i hate it.

what do you know,
i'm a normal teenager.

why is life so complicated?
why can't it be simple and easy?

why.

i can't help but be a little annoyed when you didn't even give them a chance when i suggested them,
but all of a sudden a boy comes along and, wow. you're in love with them too.
isn't that a coinidence?
do you really just like them because he does?
and if you really do like them, why wouldn't you listen to me when i was trying to show you.
it hurts. and it annoys me.

i told you mae was amazing.
i guess it just took a boy to get your attention.